I am working on two posts concurrently but I came across an article in the Huffington Post that was so apropos for my current circumstances. I just have to share.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tina-swithin/setting-boundaries-with-a-narcissist_b_5826322.html
I have always wanted to go to a masquerade. To don an exquisitely made mask with a plume of feathers off to one side and dress in an equally exquisite ball gown. That just sounds so fun to me. But I wonder how much your identity is really obscured just because your face is partially covered, especially to those who are familiar with you. Some masks are probably more effective than others at concealing the identity of its wearer. The same is so in life.
In my last post I introduced the abusive person as maintaining a good guy/bad guy persona commonly compared to Jekyll/Hyde. Due to the length of the post I had to stop before elaborating on the complication of referring to Dr. Jekyll as the “good apple” and ended with this question: Is Dr. Jekyll really the good guy?
This is a particularly difficult article for me to write. There is a line from Alice in Wonderland that perhaps best explains this for me.
“ If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn’t. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn’t be. And what it wouldn’t be, it would. You see?”
-Alice
You see?
Of course not. It is nonsensical. And that is why this is so difficult to write.
I like to write but never considered having my own blog. Sometimes getting things out on paper (or a computer screen) is cathartic. You feel better having written it and can move on. But I never considered writing my thoughts out for other people to read. There is a lot of risk going public, not to mention the terrifying thought of baring my soul. In writing….